Tuesday, 26 July 2016

Karena Aku Hanya Hidup Sekali






"Ririiin, main yuuk!” 

Teriakan itu aku tujukan kepada temanku. Sambil berdiri, jari-jariku spontan memainkan bunga di depan rumahnya. Ia keluar dengan wajah penuh bedak tak keruan. Rambutnya tampak klimis. Aroma minyak kayu putih dari tubuhnya begitu menyengat. Kami pun menyambangi teman-teman lain, yang letak rumahnya saling berdekatan dengan kami. 

“Eh, aku punya kaset Petualangan Sherina. Lihat, nih!” celetuk Adnan dengan logat Boyolali yang masih kental. Ia memamerkan kasetnya di depan wajah kami. 

“Waaaah. Beli di mana?” sorak semuanya secara bergantian. Ekspresi Dwi, Aisyah, Sari, Ririn, Kak Mayda, Kak Ronald, dan Elma tak jauh berbeda denganku. Merasa takjub. 

 “Wah, aku ndak tau ik. Ibu yang beli.

“Nonton ini aja yo,” Kak Mayda menyahut. 

“Ya sudah. Mau nonton di rumah siapa?” tanya Dwi. 

“Di rumah Kak Mayda saja, yuk!” saranku menimpali. Kak Mayda mengiyakan.

Kami begitu mudah mencerna apa yang dikatakan dan dilakukan para tokoh utama. Mulai dari menirukan tarian, ucapan, hingga peran saat scene lagu “Jagoan”, “Anak Mami”, dan lain-lain. Hampir semua scene yang berisi lagu dipraktikkan kembali layaknya Saddam dan Sherina sungguhan. Tak hanya film ini saja yang kami perankan ulang. Tersayang dan Tersanjung pun juga kena sasaran. Seperti itulah kami mengisi waktu sore dengan memainkan permainan yang berbeda-beda. 

Hingga suatu saat salah satu teman kami, Si Medok dari Boyolali, Adnan, menyeletuk di tengah permainan, “Teman-teman aku mau pindah ke Sragen.” 

“Ha?! Yang bener?” kata Kak Mayda. 

“Iya,” jawab Adnan.

Kenapa?” 

“Bapakku pindah kerja di sana e.

Hari berganti. Bulan pun mengikuti. Meski harus bermain tanpa Adnan dan Aisyah, lama-kelamaan kami terbiasa. Sayangnya, Dwi justru menyusul pindah ke kota lain.

Suatu malam, Mama dan Papa mengatakan bahwa Papa mendapatkan sebuah mess (rumah dinas) di tempat kerja. Menjabat sebagai kepala asrama karyawan, Papa harus berada di mess sepanjang hari. Ia harus berjaga-jaga kalau terjadi sesuatu dengan karyawan di asrama tersebut. Jadi, setiap malam sekitar pukul 21.00, Papa pergi ke mess dan bermalam disana. 

Setelah dipertimbangkan A–Z, akhirnya kami sekeluarga pindah ke mess itu. Setiba di sana, kami melihat fasilitas yang lengkap. Ada lapangan tenis, sepak bola, voli, bulu tangkis, dan basket. Rumah pun lebih megah, lengkap dengan pekarangan yang berlipat-lipat luasnya

Namun, tak ada artinya fasilitas yang wah. Aku tak menemukan teman sebaya. Aku lebih banyak bermain dengan Mbak yang membantu Mama di rumah dan adik-adikku. Tak ada lagi Si Medok Adnan, Si Bedak Tidak Rata Ririn, Si Pendiam Dwi, serta Si Tiga Bersaudara Kak Mayda, Kak Ronald, dan Elma.
Hari berganti, matahari timbul tenggelam tanpa lelah. Usia pun bertambah. Tanpa terasa 4 tahun sudah aku menjadi masyarakat sipil di mess. Hingga suatu siang pada hari Minggu, aku melihat seorang laki-laki yang kira-kira usianya sebaya denganku. Dari wajahnya, terlihat tak asing. 

Eh, iya. Itu Andro! Andro adalah saudara dari Kak Mayda, Kak Ronald, dan Elma yang memang cukup sering main ke rumah Mayda bersaudara. Dan, ternyata dia sekarang tinggal di mess ini juga! Karena sudah lama sekali tidak bertemu, sudah pasti akan kikuk sekali.

Suatu sore, kami bermain voli bersama. “Gue yang serving, elu yang di sana ya,” ujar Andro sambil menunjuk ke arah seberang net. Duh. Mati. Ketahuan, deh gue enggak bisa main voli. Oh, o-ke,ucapku terbata-bata. Ketika dia serving bola, tanganku sudah kukepal dan kuayun ke depan untuk memukul bola. Kacaunya, bola malah masuk ke tengah-tengah di antara kedua tanganku. Tunggu dulu. Kenapa aku merasa lama-lama sifat centilku keluar secara alami ya? Apa aku sudah puber? Tapi, aku kan masih SD. Aku... Aku kan… Ah, apakah ini yang namanya perasaan suka? 

Waktu memanggilku untuk berubah menjadi dewasa. Aku kelas 3 SMP dan Andro siswa 2 SMP, tetapi sebenarnya kami berdua lahir pada tahun yang sama.
 
Suatu siang, di saat aku sedang hampir tertidur di dalam bus karyawan, aku melihat dua anak laki-laki yang pakaiannya berbeda dengan penumpang lain, tetapi seragamnya sama denganku. Fasilitas bus ini memang sangat bermanfaat bagi karyawan dan anak sekolah yang tinggal di mess. Namun, siapa sangka bus ini pun membawa petaka.

“Bu, Andro kecelakaan. Tertabrak bus karyawan! Meninggal, Bu,” teriak Mbak Ifa, anak buah Papa yang siang-siang datang ke rumah. 

What the... Rosario pun langsung berada di tanganku. Berharap dan berdoa agar Andro sebenarnya belum pergi atau mungkin bangkit kembali. Teman mainku (sekaligus laki-laki pertama yang aku sukai) pergi. Untuk selamanya? 

Hal yang paling membuatku tidak menyesal menjadikannya laki-laki pertama yang aku suka adalah ucapan terakhir sebelum pergi kepada ayahnya, “Pah, sopir bus jangan diapa-apain ya.” Kini dunia mainku di mess terasa sepi sekali. Aku harus kehilangan teman-teman mainku di rumah lama dan sekarang aku harus kehilangan teman mainku kembali. 

Tapi, ulat akan jadi kupu-kupu, rambut hitammu pun akan memutih, dan kita tak akan selamanya menikmati siang. Gelap selalu menanti gilirannya. Hidup pun pasti akan berubah. Aku bersyukur bisa menikmati apa yang pernah aku nikmati, termasuk bisa menangis karena merindukan kenikmatan-kenikmatan sederhana tersebut. 

"Come with me, then. We can talk over food in the dining hall. Lunchtime is over, but if we go now they can still make us something" Haruki Murakami dalam Norwegian Wood. Tiba-tiba aku teringat kutipan dari salah satu koleksi novelku ini yang seolah menyiram jiwaku. Tuhan pasti akan, bahkan sudah punya sesuatu untukku. Jadi, aku harus go ahead. Ya! Karena aku hanya hidup sekali. (ME)

Indonesian Fake Vaccines Scandal Harms Millions of Innocence

Vaccine is known as a substance which is injected into the body and it is definitely useful as a shield against any diseases by increasing the immunity of the body. In Indonesia, it is a must for all children to receive the immunization since they age 4 years old to avoid some serious diseases, such as polio and hepatitis. However, it turned to be something frightening and panicking for the nation due to the exposed fake vaccines which have been distributed to many health facilities and hospitals in Jakarta and some regions of the island of Java. The substance which fortunately should give benefits to the immune system ended up turning the body fragile and easy to get infected.  

This scandal is terrifically astonishing of how those fake vaccines could be freely distributed for over 13 years with millions of children harmed. It leads to suggest three possible causes. First, imported vaccines became extinct for years while the number of needs increased year by year. “Many parents from high middle class society prefer to choose alternative (imported) vaccines (than the locals)” as quoted by Tengku Bahdar Johan Hamid, the head of National Agency of Drugs and Foods Control (BPOM) in m.tempo.com. Their extinction led some irresponsible activists to invent illegal imported vaccines. Secondly, the higher price of imported vaccines ended up giving them bright idea to distribute the illegal vaccines with much lower price. Last, it could be assumed lack of proper overhaul from BPOM was one of the assumed causes as well.
 
In sum, deaths may be hardly linked to the fake vaccines and truly can be anticipated by re-vaccinating the victims, yet if the government does not start any action, it can be assumed parents will feel trepidatious to let their kids jabbed and immunized. Therefore, this hair-raising scandal commands to suggest two solutions. First, the BPOM seriously requires to tighten their regulations to carefully sort all foods and medicines before getting distributed. Moreover, Biofarma as the main supplier of local vaccines should provide more various kinds which have not been manufactured before, with imported-like quality and surely affordable price. It aims to reduce the number of imported vaccines users in Indonesia, thus the extinction of imported ones would not be a matter for parents and would not give any chance to other syndicates to play more games.(ME) 

Tuesday, 21 June 2016

May You Rest in Peace there, My Big Man

Referring to my title, actually sometimes I believe in that. Sometimes. Because when someone is facing a death of his/her family or friend, the other people will tell him/her so. AND people will also tell the same thing to someone who's getting birth of their child, "welcome to the world, baby. you've been starting your life now". *deeplysigh*
SO, can I conclude that death and birth are totally the same thing of beginning a new life? Geez..

I'm not one of philosophers who accurately know about those such things.

Why do I suddenly come up writing this thing after a long time not showing my writings up here, on my blog?

2 weeks ago, December 14, at 12.10 pm, my lovely father left me and my family forever. Nobody felt anything wrong in the morning. Couple of hours before God took him, he still did his daily activity as usual, without felling or telling something bad. It all happened suddenly. Till my mom asked me to go back to house. I already knew something bad might happen in home. And my bad feeling answered me correctly.

It's already 2 weeks of our loss. I'm still used to thinking if it's real. Sometimes I hope he's coming when I heard somebody open the door of my house. But he isn't.

I haven't been a good girl for you, Papa.



What Is Wrong With YOU?


Sometimes I just need to smile in the morning to forget the thing happened last night.

Wow. You come and go without even think how torn this heart is.

Sorry. I don’t mean to be mean but you made me this way.

My brain decided to forget you, while my heart doesn’t.

Hold me if you really mean it. If don’t, letting me go will make me breathable.

Trying to blow out the hurting dust but it keeps coming without even sorry. (ME)

Saturday, 22 June 2013



(S)he Is Beautiful



This Monday, the day of creative writing class, was the second time of Mbak Abmi to substitute Mas Dalih, my lecturer who was absent because of having an important thing to do in Bali. Watching “Bag It” movie and reviewing it were what we had to do on the previous meeting with her. This Sunday, she brought appearing-like-a-lady guest with long hair, pointed nose, and proportional body. Her strange appearence, made our doubts came up while she was sitting at the corner. Then, we were asked to interview her by five topics from Mbak Abmi in team. In addition, our doubt revealed when Mbak Abmi called her ‘HE’. Yup, it may be queer but it’s real that she is waria, a man appearing as a woman. That made me change my mind to call him as ‘SHE’ no more but as ‘HE’.


Olivia Sonya Aresta, kindly called as Sonya, was originally from Klaten and now he has been living in Jogja since he was in vocational school (D3). Being a waria does not relieve his will to still exist in Perkumpulan Keluarga Berencana Indonesia (PKBI), run his business as an online seller, make-up bride, and beauty consultant.


He has been doing his best to find his identity since the rejection from his mother as a teacher, who is regarded by people around as a good figure. That’s what she has to do to get a confession and acceptance from his family. 


Living here in Jogja for continuing his study in vocational school, brought a funny memory for him to remember about the first causes leading him to be like what he is now. His parents allowed him to play with girls rather than boys because they might hurt him. It made him like to make-up, play doll, and dress like a girl. Even as he was in junior high school, he was feeling afraid no more to go outside for hanging out in the night and it countinued until senior high school. One day when he went to a mall and wore skirt, he met his friends there and automatically they got surprised by looking him dressing like a woman.  Because of feeling shocked by their notice, he threw his shoes and ran away. This made him getting mocked and had to hide from his friend. Went out from Klaten and lived in Jogja were his choice to avoid their mockings, but it still did not make him live in peace, because people knew his rejection and throwing done by his family. However, he refused their assumption because he really wanted to restrain the inconvenience from his family of his decision to be a waria.   


Jogja is a pleasant place for her with Its fascinating atmosphere which madeit different from other place he had ever visited, like Solo, Bandung, Jakarta and even Bali. In addition, he found both lessons and his confidence here when he became a volunteer for earthquake in Bantul. Here, he also finds his true friends who care with him, looked after him when he was hospitalized and always by her side. He feels that his friends have made him meaningful, so he wants to made her life more meaningful by being a volunteer in PKBI not only for one or two months but forever. He wants to help people, especially waria to fight against HIV AIDS and to defend their identity to be admitted as an equal resident who have similar rights as others. I think It is very best for me for considering her as a beautiful one, from her inner that has inspired me a lot. Thank You..      

     


Saturday, 15 June 2013


Port Stephen, Sydney


This incredible picture – amazing yachts with shiny sky back there – was made by Kim Yee Seul, an English Department student of 2010. This picture was taken in Port Stephen, Sydney when she was having her holiday there. She loves painting with acrylic but she only paints what she likes. She likes yacht, car, and people in sporty style, that's what I see from her paintings on Kim Yee Seul's blog. Her painting of yacht is the one that I like most, because I can see her really dream to go to new place. Port is a place where will bring you to a new place that you want with the ships there similar to what airport does with the airplanes there. She added beautiful and cheerful sky on the back of the yachts which represents her truly desire to visit new isle.




Plastic Bags in Bushes, in River, in Canal, and Everywhere!

Thats what the three old men said to Jeb Berrier, the host of Bag It documentary, when they were talking about the spread of plastic.
In this movie, Jeb told about the bad effects of using plastics for environments, peoples health, especially for pregnancy because it can cause premature birth and it can decrease anogenital distance for newborn babies. Plastic also causes many healthy problems, such as authism for children, diabetes, obesity, asthma, allergies and people will not guess that plastic could give negative effects for woman and mans vital organ and the increasing of their functions, such as low sperm counts, decreased sperm motility, premature breast development, and even smaller penis size. He opened peoples eyes and minds, including me, not to use more plastics because everything has been made by plastic, household products and even electronics. 1 million plastic cups used on U.S. airlines flights every 6 hours and 2 million plastic bottles consumed in U.S. every 5 minutes. So would we make it again more? Me, and almost everybody I guess, have already known since along time ago about dangerous effects of using plastic for our lives especially for the environment, but people still do not stop using it, and plastic still can be found in almost all department stores for packing the purchase. Its much cheaper, simpler, practice and easy to use. Thats the reason why many supermarkets still use it.

In Bag It movie, when Jeb was going to buy vegetables and other household needs, he brought his purchase without any plastic. He did not want the cashier to give him plastics. He literally brought the purchases by his two hands.      

By watching this movie, I suddenly realized that plastics are everywhere, even when we are walking, we may see flying plastic, when we are visiting beach, we could see also many floating plastics there. In North Pacific Subtropical Gyre has been found a Great Pacific Garbage Patch  sized as Texas land. Algalita Marine Research Foundation found much more plastic than plankton to eat with 40:1 for the comparation there.

By many negative effects given from plastic, Jeb gave us advices in the end of the movie :
1         1. Less packaging
2         2. Bring your own market bag
3         3. Only buy what you need
4         4. Dont drink bottled water
5         5. Reduce single-use
6         6. Reduce, reuse, then recycle
By following what written above, you have cleaned-up your life and this earth.